this movie….
James finally gave this a real chance last night and liked it. Unintentionally afterwards, we were talking and I asked him if he thought I was ‘pretty’ and without even thinking about it, he reenacted this scene and told me to go under the covers w him and started kissing me everywhere, telling me how pretty he thinks I am. It’s cheesy, I know but it’s something I wanna remember. Most days and nights, he makes me feel better.
I don’t think I’ve ever loved anyone more than I do with you.
even at our fucking worst times together, there’s always something telling me that we can work things out with each other. Whether it be you at fault or me at fault, or even both. I just figure that a lot of the words that are exchanged are more out of anger than anything else and knowing you and you knowing me so well, just gives me that much more hope in thinking that we really want each other; that we, indefinitely, want to keep being together for however long. Yeah we have our moments when we absolutely can’t stand each other, but who the fuck doesn’t? In two days, it’ll be Jan the 5th and I am proud to say that even after three years of being together, I am more in love with you and in general more than ever ever before. You are something else, James Pursifull. Thank you for continuing to hold on just as strong and for not giving up on me even when I give up on me. Know that I will not give up on you, too. You’ve definitely got a hold on me
I love you-
This morning, I wake up next to you feeling completely rested. I feel like I’m able to breathe again after opening up to you yesterday. I’m sure this specific turn in our relationship is definitely going to be different but as anxious and as nervous and down-right scared I am of the direction this might take, I’m also looking forward to all the given talks, laughs and cries, embraces and kisses, adventures, and of course, the love that we’ll be able to keep experiencing with each other. And more specifically, I can’t wait until a handful of our plans (mini vacations!) start coming around. I’m so excited for all of it. Right now, I find myself not being able to keep myself from kissing and embracing you even though you’re sleeping in a little longer. I like this feeling- I like knowing we’re on the same page when it comes to us. I like knowing that you’ve noticed how much more serious our relationship is turning as it grows and I like knowing that you’re happy about that. It makes me happy that you feel just as ready as I do in continuing growing up in so many aspects together. I can’t even begin to describe how much my perception of you has changed in these almost three years of being with you. I’ve seen you in so many different lights as you have with me. You bring out the best as well as the worst in a number of given moments, but there isn’t a god damn day when I don’t think of doing good by you. Obviously this isn’t at all perfect in all its many ways, but being able to have someone who can overwhelm you with so much emotion in more good ways than bad, keeps me holding on to the constant hope I have for us to be more than okay. And while seasons are continuously changing, they’ll go on to be the same as they were. That’s what our relationship will be as well- we’re going to keep aging and growing up and learning new ways even on our own but at the end of the day, I don’t mind drifting off into sleep and waking up the very next morning just to see you still there- I don’t mind that at all.
